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Tuesday, December 19, 2006
social observation... a reminder
I was always been attracted by issues and problems that I seen and observed in people though I don't think I am close to be a savior who can get rid of all of their misfortunes.
It started maybe 5 years ago, when I came into 'social education'. Working in a restaurant, it's common to see people coming in and going out whilst in-between we were able to communicate with customers and also observing their personal agenda. That was one. Working for any employer, there are always chances to communicate with people, be it customers, clients, colleagues, superiors, presentation and others.
The young me has no obligation, no pressure, no responsibilities... just equipped with mind, body and soul to get education. It enabled a calm stature in me to see what other people are doing while I was learning.
I still remember the sight of a family with around 4 to 6 kids with them in the LRT. I was just sitting opposite them, and the father and mother wore a glum look on their faces. And for some time, I kept pondering and wondering what exactly were they thinking. It seemed to me there must be something that was bogging them that made them look so down.
There were also other individuals I had observed all this years. All I had learnt was just 'questions'. I did make assumption for myself, and I do feel I can keep that assumption as an agreeable answer. There were less young people in my observation and many of them were adults. And based on this, the answer gets clearer.
Recently, an acquaintance of mine suffered dental pain. I was told that he needed a surgery to remove the bad tooth and it will cost a big sum of money. From his despair look, I pitied him but at the same time I can only digest 'question(s)' for myself.
At times, there are even things we couldn't really see by just observing. She was a friend of mine and currently she was caught in a triangle relationship. She didn't show any emotion if she didn't approach the subject. She could still do her daily chores without distraction. Even when she told me that she didn’t like the feelings that were creeping into her, she could manage it well.
That was the difference I saw finally.
I used to be the one observing, and no one would actually notice me. But time will change many things in this world. I have grown up a bit. Though I still have a lot to learn, I have responsibilities to carry, pressure to tackle and obligation to fulfill now. It was indeed a lot tougher to put yourself into the fray than to see other people in there. Well, one day, everyone will have all these... unless one choose not to... but it's hard to see things like this coming to anyone, unless there's something special in it. Nothing is impossible, but I don't think it is going to be me.
I've started a relationship with a lovely girl not long ago and I have an education to complete. For me, both require commitment. There are many things happening in and around me that there is lesser time for me to spend observing this world. I always hope for better things and knowing this, I have to work for it. These words are written as a reminder for me.
This coming Friday, hopefully with her, I can catch rides on train and see sights. ^^
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